Love's Prayer

a bit of grace

a little more time

to see her face

hold her hand in mine

all i ask is for the time

to complete my task

hold her heart in mine

just a quick blessing

is all i need

i fear time is pressing

forgive my greed

just a while

to hear her laugh

see her smile

she's all i have

all i'll ever need

let our happiness last

forgive my greed

all i can say

don't let it end

in Your name i pray

dear Lord, amen.

In Temporary Twilight

I exist only in the moment after nightfall,

When the world thinks of Love and lovers of each other,

When chaos and order play at life

And the stars themselves are passion.

And somewhere, in this temporary twilight,

I am still holding you. Now and forever,

As it has so many breathless times before,

Eternity beats your name onto my soul.

There has never been anyone, no one like you,

You were my angel, your song echoing in my heart.

And as I think longingly of your eyes

My soul remembers how to dream:

I dream your tenderness held tight in my arms,

Your hand again in mine, my heart still in yours.

And under this night, so bright in my fantasy,

We are more than even we thought possible.

I dream of lost memories of forgotten love

Of truths never learned and lies never told,

But even submerged in this vision of crystal palaces,

I know that you are gone, and I awaken.

I wake, like I rise each morning,

Praying that my heart won’t call to you,

Knowing all the while that it will, as it has

Every since my lips first touched yours.

I awake to a world of coldness

Where the warmth of you lying next to me is a memory,

But that memory is all that sustains me

As I seek the clouds I last saw you dancing under.

"Go then. There are other worlds than these." - Stephen King, The Gunslinger

Cornerstone Reality

"You say you wanna go so we can both be free" -W/As My Girl, Maxwell 


I was cold within, without you, on that forgotten eve, by that lonely lake
As I reflected. And the water reflected the moonlight such that I could almost mistake
Silver light for icy rime, in the waves and my soul; and though not likely in that clime,
Somewhat more plausible than my wasted effort to stop your heart's retreat from mine.
Though, even after this space of time, sure I am that had I decided, heavyhearted, to go wading,
Instead of standing alone on that twilit Autumn/Winter shore lonely, longing, waiting,
Cold for want of Lost-Love's warming embrace, and had lost myself- dark frigid water enlaced-
Then, in that moment, would have been no more or less frozen than since I last kissed your face.

Small Room (A Song in Chains)

In that small room, deep in you,

Is where I sing my song in chains,

A song of Love, once pure and new

Then, suddenly, forever changed.

This closet in your soul,

Through which moved I once so deftly,

Seems, of late, darker and cold,

But I stay because it is all you have left me.

For me Love was ever Energy,

Kinetic or potential, slowed or hastened,

But as you turned away from me,

It became Energy quickly wasted.

So I sing my song in chains

Everlonging, everthinking

Of a Love once true then forcefully changed,

And my place in your heart ever shrinking.

Schwarzschild Radius

It is not in me to end this,

not while

your smile sings in my soul,

not while I can still taste

every kiss, every breath.

I cannot (will not)

see myself out of this,

never escaping this heavenly prison.                  

I am helplessly burning in sweetness,

your touch

feeding

the flames.

So if you don’t want me,

let me go,                                                                    

Cause I’ll never leave,

never willingly deny myself

all the pleasures of you.

Unrequited

"If I can't see your face, I will remember your smile." 

                                                           ~"You Bring Me Joy" Anita Baker, Rapture, 1986

I cannot this feeling shake:

That I need u.

This thirst slake:

To be with u.

And never did I think

It would be so.

Yet here I am

Taken by u,

My body and mind

Shaken by u,

Knowing that still must I

Let u go.

Street Song 2 (Just Another Sad Song…)

I never did think it would turn out this way,

With you and I so far apart,

But seeing you with another man

Was more than enough to break my heart.

And when I asked you about it when you came home,

After I sat 2 hours in the dark alone,

You had the nerve to lie in my face

That’s cool, know what, take ya shit and get it outta my place.

Just take the broken dreams you gave me

And go lie in the bed that you’ve made

See I’ve heard all of this before

And I ain’t lettin’ you hurt me no more.

Why are you still here, talkin about don’t let it end,

Sayin’ I misunderstood, he was just a friend.

But look witch, somebody musta told you wrong

Because this ain’t no damn Biz Markie song.

Love might’ve been blind, but it ain’t no more,

And all I want is you goin through that door.

I don’t wanna hear no more of your lies,

Like I’ma believe your triflin’ ass over my two eyes.

So I take back all the promises that I made you,

After this even Jesus couldn’t save you,

Cause I’m all done and that’s for damn sure,

Now get your ass on the other side of that door.

Why are you still talking? why is you still here?

I wanna see you walkin and I think I made that clear.

Back up off me, I ain’t gonna touch you so you can call the cops,

Just cause you got caught out there and wanna pull out all the stops.

But I swear on my kids, I’ll never hit you,

I just want you to go so I can start to forget you.

But don’t get it twisted, you got 10 minutes to pack.

Then I’m callin’ out my girl-cousins for the open field attack.

And take these broken dreams you gave me                             

And put them with the games that you played.

And I really hope he has what you lookin’ for,

Cause I ain’t wasting my Love on you no more.