Machinations

Words are plastic, 
shapeable by the speaker and the listener, 
and as such are somewhat less than the thoughts and feelings that we wish to convey by them. But here across space, 
where the silence of your smile 
and the taste of your skin are distant stars in a twilight sky, 
words carry all of the Gravity left to us. 
Thus I offer you these machines, 
these words, 
to understand, work and shape as you will: 
Cold, Reaching, Resonance and Desire.

The Jazz of You

a stormfall of raindrops talks to my windowpane of

majestic melodies and natural symphonies,

the jazz of you.

miles in your eyes, sarah in your smile;

my heart hears the coltrane in your walk.

clouds dance shadows across us while

falling leaves, their colors shining,

hug our feet as we stroll

and sing to me about thoughts of you.

your music touches me,

warms a heart made cold long ago.

throbbing bass, sweet sax,

the motions of love in air

and the cracking of ice as champagne maintains;

a love supreme in the nearness of you.

i soul dance to this music,

the monk in your voice, the grover on your lips,

as candlelight shines in the darkness.

all we have is right now

but your sweet song promises so much more,

so many tomorrows for us to dream of

as this peaceful melody lulls us into

a sentimental mood

and warms us from winter’s chill.

Nepenthe

I will drink a song from your sea then bless you with one from mine.

I consume your kisses and stagger,

Intoxicated as I know the vintage of your presence,

Inebriated by the nearness of you,

My soul swaying to the rhythm of every breath you take.

This is where my tensions ease.

This is where sadness fades.

I have become addicted to your smile.

And I imbibe unreservedly of your sweet, sweet wines

As we muddle psyche and soma

And forget all of our woes in the glory of drunken revelry.

Even the hangover that my leaving must bring is the pain of Love.

Love's Prayer

a bit of grace

a little more time

to see her face

hold her hand in mine

all i ask is for the time

to complete my task

hold her heart in mine

just a quick blessing

is all i need

i fear time is pressing

forgive my greed

just a while

to hear her laugh

see her smile

she's all i have

all i'll ever need

let our happiness last

forgive my greed

all i can say

don't let it end

in Your name i pray

dear Lord, amen.

Lemniscate

You may seek me,

If your hatred or your love,

Your desire for vengeance or for passion

So direct you.

But if it is not my wish,                                                 

I will not be found.

And then, in the silent midnight hour,

When the dark clouds o’ersweep the moon and

Hurl lightning from horizon to horizon

As the celestial thunderer rages,

I will come to you with the falling rain

And then we will be one under and within the storm.

Street Song 6: Once Again Until Once More

We stand here together,

Once again,

Hand-in-hand and everything is beautiful.

We talk and we laugh just like before.

And then I see you talkin’ to that dude

That you know I got beef with.

So now I got questions,

And you givin’ the rolly-eye?!

And we back arguing

Just like we used to be.

Is this why we got back together?!

To yell and scream once again?

Until once more we realize what

We’re doin’ to each other,

And then it’s “Honey, I’m sorry”

And love is love, holdin’ hands and shit.

Man, I don’t know what I’da done

If I lost you this time,

But I didn’t so everything is cool

Once more until once again

Ya girls is tellin’ you that they seen me

In the mall with my son’s moms

And now you trippin’

Know what I mean? Tryin to flip on me?

Don’t you see the game is on?!

And Vick runnin' the ball?!

And anyway, my cousin said he think he thought

He saw you and your hoochie ass friends

In the club, you know that night you

Said your Moms was sick?

So what the deal?

Know what, matter fact, fuck that,

I’m goin back to my Moms an shit,

Get me a job, save some loot an

Get my own spot once more

Til once again I’m sittin’ here

Dealing with these girls that don’t mean

Shit to me just to keep my

Heart from feelin’ so damn empty.

Damn, I hear your voice in the wind

And I wish I could have you back

Once again. 

Element: Earth

Earth

We are foundation,

Holding up the Heavens

At the same time that we support one another’s weight.

You rise over me, only to drop again,

Again and again.

We plow, nourishing the earth

With the joy of Seed.

I dig into you with urgency, a hunger

For your harvest that grows of its own accord.

We live to reap, to grow, to move snakelike in

Strong, moist soil,

Living to die and dying to live again

As we nourish.

My stalk grows in your tunnels,

Knowing your yielding loamy moisture

As you continue to climb the tree rising

From the center of me,

As my mountain thrusts into your valley,

Bringing life, giving life.

I lift you, turn you so that we give of our bounty,

Life’s mud coating our faces before

I rise again, now to the world beneath the world,

Driving my plow into the rich soil,

Loving the resistance, loving the mud,

Loving the dust, loving the dirt

As we dig deep,

Shovel throbbing, earth moving,

Quaking

And drinking deep

And shake the world

As we nourish.

Spirituality: House of Worship

"Tu as pris mon cœur, ma sœur, mon épouse, tu as pris mon cœurpar un de tes yeux, avec une chaîne de ton cou." KJV, Song of Solomon 4:9

I am Nox’s son, Father/Brother/god
That brings the revelation of flesh,
All the manna of our souls falling through the air,
All your curses moving me on,
As I pulse in the rhythm of your Angel-sweet body
Entering your temple in awe
And in ecstasy.


We are the congregation lascivious, rocking in hunger,
Writing our prayers in friction
As we speak in tongues that dance as they taste
And testify at the top of our lungs.
We bow our heads in rapture
From the give and response of
Physical hymns.


I am the cardinal in pantherskin, preacher/predator,
Sermonizing as I prey;
Every verse written in fluids primal
And quoted from the holy book of our bodies,
Anointed in our own oils,
My rod comforting you,
Your body Communion sweet.


We are the Choir of the dark, sinsinging,
Harmonizing, in the clapping of our soma,
While mouths drip the holy waters of our passion:
Sweet, musky wine and hot salty lyrics,
Psalms that bounce off the walls
As we duet the mantra of desire.
Percussion in the House of Worship.


I am the Thunder, nightskinned lightning,
Bringing the storm of ecstasy,
The rain that falls from your thighs,
My voice booms as I strike deep
And electrify the flower in your temple,
Making it bloom
Making you shout.


We are the Church of the Erotic, holy and profane,
Righteous in Our Name, sinners in our blood,
Making an offering of all our passions,
Calling God with our psyches,
Bodies pulsing with the infinite beat
Of the Heart in the heart of hearts,
Cumming soulward and seeking Heaven.


Amen.

Small Room (A Song in Chains)

In that small room, deep in you,

Is where I sing my song in chains,

A song of Love, once pure and new

Then, suddenly, forever changed.

This closet in your soul,

Through which moved I once so deftly,

Seems, of late, darker and cold,

But I stay because it is all you have left me.

For me Love was ever Energy,

Kinetic or potential, slowed or hastened,

But as you turned away from me,

It became Energy quickly wasted.

So I sing my song in chains

Everlonging, everthinking

Of a Love once true then forcefully changed,

And my place in your heart ever shrinking.

Schwarzschild Radius

It is not in me to end this,

not while

your smile sings in my soul,

not while I can still taste

every kiss, every breath.

I cannot (will not)

see myself out of this,

never escaping this heavenly prison.                  

I am helplessly burning in sweetness,

your touch

feeding

the flames.

So if you don’t want me,

let me go,                                                                    

Cause I’ll never leave,

never willingly deny myself

all the pleasures of you.

Street Song 4: Got Me Opin

"I know I gotta be cooler than this cat you sittin' with....I'll do you right baby."

                                                                               ~777-9311, The Time

I could be like everyone else

If I chose, be like those

Who call you fine;

Say you sweet in my mind

Like the thought of a sin.

Aww shit, let me begin again

And just be me.

It's not hard to see

That I'm lost in your eyes

(And contemplation of your thighs

Keeps me up at night,

Just knowin' it would be right.)

But is that even the place to start?

Or should I tell you that you touched my heart,

Warmed it, made it beat so it seems even in my dreams

I taste your sweet and feel your heat?

How to even begin to tell you

That you beautiful like a sin I'd love to commit.

And you stay on my mind, I have to admit.

Probably 'til the stars burn out, no doubt,

It's your name in the dark that I'd love to shout,

And hold you like I do in my dreams

And it seems like a thing alive,

Stronger than even my pride,

And that ain't just another line.

Gimme a chance baby, 

I'll make you dance dance dance dance,

All you need to do is say yes,

You're my sweetest taboo, my honey colored goddess.

Sweet like that sin in the back of my mind,

Yeah you got me open,

And yeah I'm open wide.

Predation

(inhale)

stretch

You have entered my presence,

My territory,

Unsuspecting,

Unmindful that you were meant

To be my next repast.

I lick my teeth in anticipation

Of aliment, ravenous.

(exhale)

step

(inhale)

I taste you, your incense dancing in the wind,

As I glide,

Tiger by moonlight, hungry stalking

Everhunting everwanting you.                                       

stride

(exhale)

pursue

(inhale)

We move naturally,

Subaudible,

The choreography of hunter and prey.

You do not know that you are hunted,

Yet are no safer in your nescience.

crouch

(exhale)

Patience and I shall feed of your nectar

Taste your liquid kiss.

Muscles tensed, ready to spring,

To feed as you take the tension from me,

But I shall not rush.

stalk

(inhale)

shadow

(exhale)

I dance with you, slowly, to the clearing

Wherein our violent ballet shall conclude;

Destinies fulfilled as we slowly become one.

My need sated as I eat of you,

Feeding in ecstasy at your temple.

(inhale)

crouch

I move ever closer,

(exhale)

Almost embracing you with my teeth,

pounce

I become the breath on the back of your neck.

(bite)

Ahhh….